God does not waste suffering.
[3] Not only that, but we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, [4] and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, [5] and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.
https://bible.com/bible/59/rom.5.3-5.ESV
And so in my own suffering I hoped and waited and cried and died and opened my eyes and ears in my valley, to the whispers of the Lord.
"Trust Me for I know you child"
"Read of My goodness and grace"
"Trust in my Words and it's promises"
"Fear the Lord and Walk in the Light"
It is the reading of the Bible and the prayer times and times of praise where the whispers speak, seemingly with growing echos. They speak of goodness and peace and comfort comes in the darkness and lights the path for each step.
There is where I learned that he is the light in the tunnel and not just at the end.
And so now the snake that writhes in conflict within me long ago now breathes out a fire like which is of the serphim.
Luke 18:27 ESV
[27] But he said, “What is impossible with man is possible with God.”
https://bible.com/bible/59/luk.18.27.ESV
Forevermore I will sing songs of praise from my lips and in the mere shadow of his Almighty Presense. For how am I even worthy to serve?!?!? No wonder the seraphim cover their face and body with 4 wings and leave 2 for flight. He is their Commander as He is also mine; where I am sent I will go.
Galatians 2:20 ESV
[20] I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.
https://bible.com/bible/59/gal.2.20.ESV
With every breath for the rest of my days I will shout His glory! For I am dead to myself, what brittle dry bones do I have from my days of rising and resting in vanity!
Romans 11:36 ESV
[36] For from him and through him and to him are all things. To him be glory forever. Amen.
https://bible.com/bible/59/rom.11.36.ESV
For I am been purified with an alter sacrifice and my sins cleansed!
Isaiah 6:6-7 ESV
[6] Then one of the seraphim flew to me, having in his hand a burning coal that he had taken with tongs from the altar. [7] And he touched my mouth and said: “Behold, this has touched your lips; your guilt is taken away, and your sin atoned for.”
https://bible.com/bible/59/isa.6.6-7.ESV
Despite the inclination of my heart:
Luke 6:45 ESV
[45] The good person out of the good treasure of his heart produces good, and the evil person out of his evil treasure produces evil, for out of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaks.
So in my "Valley of Lament" I realize NOW is time to invest. Invensr in the things that which will return riches not in this life but in the next! For there my treasure is stored and that is how we are commanded to live, as it is written.
Matthew 13:44 ESV
[44] “The kingdom of heaven is like treasure hidden in a field, which a man found and covered up. Then in his joy he goes and sells all that he has and buys that field.
https://bible.com/bible/59/mat.13.44.ESV
My life is changed. So much so that I think I will ask for a third and final baptism. This would be a demonstrable act of stepping forward in faith for the remainder of my days. No steps in fear. Only Spirit steps of power, love and self-discipline.
I wish all to know who is my Lord and my King! I also pray for words of fire in each conversation, that flames of truth would dance for the lost souls, that the words of the Truth and the Way would capture their attention. For the things that are seen is what captures the eye of the natural man. Man is blind until he sees. Truly.
Perhaps they too will be consumed in this fire storm that burns away iniquity in the heart. I wait with patience in moments of suffering. In the meantime I work on my heart - for there is still more of my own ways to examine that yet remains.
James 5:8 ESV
[8] You also, be patient. Establish your hearts, for the coming of the Lord is at hand.
https://bible.com/bible/59/jas.5.8.ESV
For the color of my thoughts is red as is my heart, the fire and blood that will be shed.
I pray I have time to go and tell.
For I fear I join as a laborour in the Vineyard at the 5 o clock hour. Though I once was called early in the morning I did not stay in the field. And so I have learned like many others and as it is written - it would have been best to listen to the Lord the first time.
Daniel 7:28 ESV
[28] “Here is the end of the matter. As for me, Daniel, my thoughts greatly alarmed me, and my color changed, but I kept the matter in my heart.”
https://bible.com/bible/59/dan.7.28.ESV
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