so much for plans

Come now, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go to such and such a city, and spend a year there and engage in business and make a profit.” Yet you do not know what your life will be like tomorrow. You are just a vapor that appears for a little while and then vanishes away. Instead, you ought to say, “If the Lord wills, we will live and also do this or that.” But as it is, you boast in your arrogance; all such boasting is evil. Therefore, to one who knows the right thing to do and does not do it, to him it is sin. — Jas 4:13-17 NASB95

Matthew Henry: 

All our actions and designs are under the control of Heaven. Our heads may be filled with cares and contrivances. This and the other thing we may propose to do for ourselves, or our families, or our friends; but Providence sometimes breaks all our measures, and throws our schemes into confusion. Therefore both our counsels for action and our conduct in action should be entirely referred to God; all we design and all we do should be with a submissive dependence on God.

Joel 2:14 King James Version

“Who knoweth if he will return and repent, and leave a blessing behind him; even a meat offering and a drink offering unto the LORD your God?”

Jesus said to them, “If you were blind, you would have no sin; but since you say, ‘We see,’ your sin remains. — Jhn 9:41 NASB95

Spurgeon:

Submit yourselves unto God"-it is what angels do, what kings and prophets have done, what the best of men delight in-there is therefore no dishonor nor sorrow in so doing. All nature is submissive to his laws; suns and stars yield to his behests, we shall but be in harmony with the universe in willingly bowing to his sway. "Submit yourselves unto God"-you must do it whether you are willing to do so or not. Who can stand out against the Almighty?

until I die it's just sparks

Iron is struck.

It is shaped.

It is purified.

Where be the next forge?

But we do not want you to be uninformed, brothers, about those who are asleep, that you may not grieve as others do who have no hope. - 1Th 4:13 ESV

Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might. Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil. - Eph 6:10-11 ESV

"I am the true vine, and my Father is the vinedresser. Every branch in me that does not bear fruit he takes away, and every branch that does bear fruit he prunes, that it may bear more fruit. Already you are clean because of the word that I have spoken to you. Abide in me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit by itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in me. I am the vine; you are the branches. Whoever abides in me and I in him, he it is that bears much fruit, for apart from me you can do nothing. If anyone does not abide in me, he is thrown away like a branch and withers; and the branches are gathered, thrown into the fire, and burned. If you abide in me, and my words abide in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you. By this my Father is glorified, that you bear much fruit and so prove to be my disciples. As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Abide in my love. If you keep my commandments, you will abide in my love, just as I have kept my Father's commandments and abide in his love. These things I have spoken to you, that my joy may be in you, and that your joy may be full. "This is my commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you. - Jhn 15:1-12 ESV

The LORD is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit. - Psa 34:18 ESV

The LORD will fight for you, and you have only to be silent." - Exo 14:14 ESV

but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint. - Isa 40:31 ESV

no weapon that is fashioned against you shall succeed, and you shall refute every tongue that rises against you in judgment. This is the heritage of the servants of the LORD and their vindication from me, declares the LORD." - Isa 54:17 ESV

For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us. For the creation waits with eager longing for the revealing of the sons of God. For the creation was subjected to futility, not willingly, but because of him who subjected it, in hope that the creation itself will be set free from its bondage to corruption and obtain the freedom of the glory of the children of God. For we know that the whole creation has been groaning together in the pains of childbirth until now. And not only the creation, but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for adoption as sons, the redemption of our bodies. For in this hope we were saved. Now hope that is seen is not hope. For who hopes for what he sees? But if we hope for what we do not see, we wait for it with patience. - Rom 8:18-25 ESV

The LORD is my strength and my shield; in him my heart trusts, and I am helped; my heart exults, and with my song I give thanks to him. - Psa 28:7 ESV

When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and through the rivers, they shall not overwhelm you; when you walk through fire you shall not be burned, and the flame shall not consume you. - Isa 43:2 ESV

Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial, for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life, which God has promised to those who love him. - Jas 1:12 ESV

Overthinking

 There are the days where the thoughts are clouded, the heart is tested and the mind is full. 

Overthinking by Samantha Ebert

verse
There′s an ache that's so persistent
There′s a battle in my mind
Trying not to let the fear win
But I can't seem to close my eyes
I wanna know that it will be okay
But I'm running out of synonyms to pray

chorus
Do I tell you I feel hopeless?
Do I tell you that I′m scared?
Do I ask you for some clarity and say, "This isn′t fair"?
When I think that you don't notice
Is when you show me just how much you care
When I′m sinking, overthinking, I know
That you won't leave me there, oh

verse
When the cycle is exhausting
And I can′t keep up the pace (ooh)
When I feel my world is falling
And there's doubt I can′t escape
Uncomplicating's what you'll have to do
Will I trust in you to help me work it through?

chorus
Do I tell you I feel hopeless?
Do I tell you that I′m scared?
Do I ask you for some clarity and say, "This isn′t fair"?
When I think that you don't notice
Is when you show me just how much you care
When I′m sinking, overthinking, I know
That you won't leave me there

bridge
Silence the riot
Send peace and quiet
′Cause I can't fight it on my own

chorus
When I tell you I feel hopeless
When I tell you that I′m scared
When I ask you for some clarity and say, "This isn't fair"
When I think that you don't notice
Is when you show me that you′re a God who cares
When I′m sinking, overthinking, I know
That you won't leave me there
You won′t leave me there, mm