Thursday, May 07, 2009

Speaking My Mind

Speaking my mind is something I do; its not a bad thing to be honest and say what you think, but a problem arises when there is disorder in functioning to think. Could it be a base substitution, deletion, insertion or what? Does it result in overproduction or a deficiency of the mind? Maybe, what is more toxic than the thought itself, is the product of that thought? I strive to understand the mechanism behind it all, but its overwhelming. Like my organic chemistry final.

‘Self-knowledge’ commonly refers to knowledge of one's particular mental states, including one's beliefs, desires, and sensations. It is also sometimes used to refer to knowledge about a persisting self -- its ontological nature, identity conditions, or character traits.

WHO AM I?

The snake in my spine whispers tales, begging for attention, suffocating my spine, until my spine agrees and I speak. Where do my ideas come from? Is it my mind or the snake. But aren't they inseparable? Which makes every act an act committed, under the influence by the snake. It whispers truly sweet words, yet deep inside its voice is a harshness unparalleled by anything of the physical world. I am entwined so intimately that I can't help but think I am my greatest enemy, possessing the traits and characteristics necessary for an innately evil human being.

The battle against the serpent wages on, until hopefully some day...


Contrary to the taunting nature of the snake, I still have faith, as weak or shriveled as it may have become. I believe it will once again become strong.


If you cannot love the pain, you can at least love the lessons it teaches"
Andrew Davidson